It's been a really long time since i've really wrote anything here of real meaning. i've gotten to post some pictures and what not but as far as substance... not so much. so here's my feeble efforts of being (somewhat) serious in what's been going on.
well i'm about half-way through the time i have to raise support for my year at montana state. as it stands right now i'm at 15%. not exactly where i'm supposed to be at this point but hey if God can part seas, keep the sun from setting, and providing food through birds this is seriously nothing. despite that it's been really tough to preserver with a real lack of momentum. and it's not just support stuff that's been rough. in the last two weeks i've had the privilege to destroy both my cell phone and ipod as well as came close to losing my car. in the saying that the Lord givith and taketh away, he's really been in the taketh away mood lately. so that's really been my prayer lately, that God would start to give this process some serious momentum.
recently, (last night) thanks to a man who's been a phenomenal encouragement to me gave me a link to a talk by dr. david jeremiah entitled "when you are in a hurry and God isn't." one of the things that really stood out to me is when he talked about patience being the same thing as endurance.
"no matter what kind of shape you are in if you push yourself to the limit you will come to the place where you hit 'the wall.' that means you come to the place where your mind and your body begin to argue with one another. your mind says 'i can't do this anymore!' and your body starts to agree. but because you are determined you just keep putting one foot infront of the other until you come to the point where you break through the wall. and you get a new burst of energy and you get what they call the 'second wind' and with the second wind you get a new burst of energy even greater then you had at the beginning..."
i feel like this is the part of the story where the plot is supposed to really take a turn. where things start going right for our hero... where the second wind really kicks in. because Lord knows i've hit the wall. i've hit the wall, backed up and ran into it even harder only to be knocked on my butt again. so here i am back in billings hoping and praying for God to show up in this last month and a half. i've got 85% to go and not alot of phone numbers to call. so please be in prayer. thanks and hopefully i'll be able to do this a little more often and so they won't be so long. and in everything let God's will be done.
emery - ...in shallow seas we sail